New Year's Eve & My Big Pity Party

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Last night the Lone Ranger & I tucked the Darlings into bed...just like usual. Afterwards we snuggled up on the couch with Belles & Whistles to watch reruns of The Cosby Show...just like usual. A little after 9:00 p.m. I headed to bed...just as usual. My head hit the pillow, my eyes closed, & my mind began to wander...just like usual. What was unusual was that it was New Year's Eve. While many were out & about ringing in the New Year, I was snoozing. For the last week I have been in a mild funk. This year we had no plans...none whatsoever. There was no fun evening out to look forward to...no dressy outfit to pick out...no friends to celebrate with...no midnight kiss. (You'd better be feeling sorry for me) I was surely having a pity party as my bottom lip stuck out (learned that from the darlings), I flipped my pillow to cold cold side, & rolled over (that sometimes helps shut down my racing thoughts) when all of a sudden a light came on (in my mind, not the room)...
All week & for several prior, I have been in that funk...with no idea why. It was not so long ago that New Year's Eve & countless other events were ones that I eagerly anticipated, but suddenly they seemed to be just another day, & that kinda bummed me out...until Abba turned the light on. The pastor of my church has been teaching for quite some time now about the difference between Chronos time & Kairos time.  Both are Greek words for time, but their meanings are vastly different. Chronos is where we derive our word 'chronologically'. It's the marking of time by minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, & etc. Kairos is 'the appointed time in the purpose of God."  It is the moments when Abba breaks through the mundane rut of our everyday lives, & reveals Himself to us. Aristotle said that Kairos is the context in which 'proof is delivered.'  These times are ones that we often chalk up to obstacles, trials, & tribulations...we neglect to see them for what they are...opportunities to see into Abba's heart. Kairos moments are God's endeavors to awaken us...to remove the focus from ourselves & to return it to Him. They are important events that end one season & begin another...spiritually. They are life altering & faith changing...when we acknowledge them for what they are.
Back to my point...these teachings have resounded deep within me. They have created a desire I never knew existed...the yearning to mark time by something more profound than days, months, & years. Abba has faithfully begun revealing the Kairos moments of my life...Last night as I was in the midst of my pity party, I suddenly knew why New Year's Eve & other events have become less significant...less fulfilling...Abba had given me the desire of my heart & had transformed my thinking. Somewhere along the way I have ceased marking time chronologically. Days, months, weeks, & years. Holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, & etc will always be important, but compared to Kairos moments...times when God breaks into my rut & reveals Himself to me...well those are the moments I now live for. My big pity party was suddenly over when I realized how amazingly cool it was to be functioning on a different wavelength...the one my Abba functions on. I awoke this morning to a new year, but more importantly I awoke transformed by a kairos moment, having experienced Abba change my 'stinking thinking' & reveal His heart to me. Each chronological day is an opportunity to deepen our relationship with the Lord & with others...each moment in a chance to allow Him to break into my life in order to draw me nearer to Him. This revelation has ended my funk...busted my pity party...and ignited an excitement for this new year & the kairos moments that are to come. I wanted to share my kairos moment with you on this first day of the new year. My heart & prayer is that beginning today, you too can mark the moments of your lives by far more than time, but by the God appointed, break through moments.
Be Blessed & Happy New Year!